February. The cold holds Long Island in its grip and I hold Marvin in mine. He follows me everywhere now — kitchen, dining room, hallway, bathroom door. My shadow, my satellite, the man who orbits me because I am the only planet in his shrinking solar system. I should find this oppressive. I find it heartbreaking and tender, the way all desperate love is heartbreaking and tender. He stays close because I am the last thing that makes sense. How can I resent being someone's sense?
I made matzo ball soup three times this week. Three times. Not because we needed three pots of soup but because Marvin asked for it each time, and when a man with Alzheimer's asks for something specific — when the fog lifts enough for a want to form, for a preference to surface — you make the soup. You make it immediately. You make it as if it were medicine, because it is medicine, and the prescription is: one pot, fluffy matzo balls, golden broth, administered with a ladle and received with the closest thing to recognition that his face still produces.
He remembers the soup. He may not remember my name every day. He may not remember what day it is. But he remembers the soup. The soup is stored somewhere the disease has not reached — in the body, maybe, in the taste buds, in the cellular memory of forty years of Fridays and the smell of chicken broth that means: Ruth is here. Home is here. You are safe. I will take this. The soup remembers him, even when he doesn't remember the soup. They recognize each other. The relationship between a man and his soup is older than language, older than memory, and the disease cannot touch it.
David called to check in. He calls every other day now. The calls are brief and clinical — how's the medication, any new symptoms, is he eating, is he sleeping. David cannot ask the real question, which is: is he still Dad? The answer is yes and no and both and neither, and the answer changes by the hour, and the answer breaks both of us, so we stick to the clinical. Eating: yes. Sleeping: too much. Medication: on schedule. The real answer — the answer about the man, not the patient — stays between me and the stove.
I wrote for the blog. A short post about making the same soup three times in one week. About the beauty of repetition. About how the third pot is not a lesser pot but a deeper one, because each repetition carries the memory of the previous pots, and the soup accumulates meaning the way snow accumulates on a rooftop: quietly, constantly, until the weight of it is astonishing.
So here it is—the soup. The one I made three times this week, the one that outlasts everything else. I’m sharing the recipe not because it’s complicated but because it isn’t, and that’s the whole point. The simplest things carry the most weight when you make them with your whole heart. If someone you love asks for soup, this is the one you make.
Classic Matzo Ball Soup
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 2 hours | Total Time: 2 hours 20 minutes (plus 1 hour chill time) | Servings: 8
Ingredients
For the broth:
- 1 whole chicken (about 4 pounds), cut into pieces
- 12 cups cold water
- 3 large carrots, peeled and cut into chunks
- 3 celery stalks, cut into chunks
- 1 large yellow onion, quartered
- 1 parsnip, peeled and cut into chunks
- 4 sprigs fresh dill
- 4 sprigs fresh parsley
- 1 tablespoon kosher salt, plus more to taste
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
For the matzo balls:
- 4 large eggs
- 1/4 cup schmaltz (rendered chicken fat) or vegetable oil
- 1 cup matzo meal
- 1/4 cup chicken broth or seltzer water
- 1 teaspoon kosher salt
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1 tablespoon fresh dill, finely chopped (optional)
For serving:
- 2 carrots, peeled and sliced into thin rounds
- 2 celery stalks, sliced thin
- Fresh dill for garnish
Instructions
- Make the broth. Place the chicken pieces in a large stockpot and cover with 12 cups cold water. Bring to a boil over high heat, then immediately reduce to a gentle simmer. Skim any foam that rises to the surface during the first 10 minutes.
- Add the aromatics. Add the carrots, celery, onion, parsnip, dill, parsley, salt, and pepper to the pot. Simmer uncovered for 1 1/2 to 2 hours, until the broth is golden and deeply flavored.
- Strain the broth. Remove the chicken pieces and set aside for another use. Strain the broth through a fine-mesh sieve into a clean pot, discarding the spent vegetables and herbs. Taste and adjust salt as needed.
- Make the matzo ball mixture. While the broth simmers, whisk the eggs and schmaltz together in a medium bowl. Stir in the matzo meal, broth or seltzer, salt, pepper, and dill if using. Mix until just combined. Cover and refrigerate for at least 1 hour or up to overnight.
- Shape the matzo balls. Bring a large pot of well-salted water to a boil. With wet hands, gently roll the matzo mixture into balls about 1 1/2 inches in diameter. Do not pack them tightly—a light touch makes fluffy matzo balls.
- Cook the matzo balls. Drop the matzo balls into the boiling water, reduce to a simmer, cover tightly, and cook for 30 to 35 minutes without lifting the lid. They will puff up and float to the surface.
- Finish the soup. While the matzo balls cook, add the sliced carrots and celery to the strained broth and simmer until tender, about 10 minutes.
- Serve. Transfer the matzo balls into bowls using a slotted spoon. Ladle the hot broth with vegetables over the matzo balls. Garnish with fresh dill and serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 210 | Protein: 10g | Fat: 11g | Carbs: 18g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 780mg