The freezer is full. That is the first sentence of most of my weeks, and it remains the first sentence today. The week was a winter week, the kind where the light through the kitchen window arrives at a particular angle and the freezer hums in a different register depending on the temperature in the garage. I made notes in my prep notebook on Sunday afternoon, the way I always do: meal name, ingredient list, cost per serving, prep time, freezer instructions. Twenty-eight bags. Two hours and eleven minutes. A little slow this week, by my standards, but Brandon was helping and the conversation was good, and I have learned, slowly and against my own grain, that the conversation is sometimes the point and the time is sometimes a courtesy I extend to my husband for being willing to chop onions on a Sunday afternoon.
The children are doing what they do, which is the central report of every week of my adult life. Ethan, 20, is in the Philippines on his mission. He sends emails on Mondays. I read them on Mondays. The day is now structured around his email. Olivia is 18, at BYU studying elementary education — the path she chose at age seven and has not deviated from once. Mason, 16, is in Brazil on his mission. His weekly emails are short and full of jokes. He does not write much about the work. He writes about the food. Lily is 14, in high school, asking the kind of questions in Sunday School that make the teachers uncomfortable, which I find difficult and also, secretly, admirable. Noah is 11, the comedian, the performer — the kid who does an impression of my disappointed face in front of company, and gets away with it. That is the family report. I do not have a system for these reports. I just listen and remember and call back when I said I would call back, which is most of the time and not all of the time, and the difference between most and all is the territory of motherhood.
The recipe of the week was funeral potatoes, which I have made some specific number of times in my life and have refined to a system that I now hand to other people in printed form. The version I made this week fed eight, cost under fifteen dollars, and required twenty-six minutes of active prep, which is within my requirements and not a coincidence. I labeled every bag — meal, date, reheating instructions, servings — because future-me is the woman I am writing for, and future-me is tired. I have stopped explaining the freezer-meal philosophy to people who already follow my work, and I have stopped apologizing for it to people who do not. The philosophy is simple: tomorrow is coming whether you are ready or not. You can either be ready or not. I pick ready.
Brandon and I sat at the kitchen island on Thursday night and did not talk much, and the not-talking was a language we built in therapy and have refused to unlearn. We have been married a long time. The arithmetic of it is the arithmetic of my whole life. There were years we missed each other in the same room, and there are years we find each other in the silences, and this is one of the latter, and I am old enough now to know that the latter is the achievement and the former was the cost.
Twenty-eight bags. Labeled. Dated. Stacked. The week, in the only currency that matters in this house.
Twenty-eight bags in the freezer, and I still made the pie. Brandon was still at the island when I pulled out the limes, and he did not ask why, and I did not explain, because we are past explaining the small acts of indulgence that hold a week together. The funeral potatoes were for future-me — the tired one, the one who needs dinner in thirty minutes. The key lime pie was for Thursday night, for the silence that is actually a conversation, for the fact that Ethan emails on Mondays and I am still learning to make peace with the days in between.
Classic Key Lime Pie
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 15 minutes | Total Time: 30 minutes plus 2 hours chilling | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 cups graham cracker crumbs (about 12 full crackers)
- 1/3 cup granulated sugar
- 6 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted
- 3 large egg yolks
- 1 tablespoon lime zest (from about 4 key limes or 2 regular limes)
- 2/3 cup fresh key lime juice (from about 20 key limes, or substitute regular lime juice)
- 2 cans (14 oz each) sweetened condensed milk
- 1 cup heavy whipping cream
- 2 tablespoons powdered sugar
- Thin lime slices, for garnish (optional)
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat your oven to 350°F. Lightly grease a 9-inch pie dish and set aside.
- Make the crust. In a medium bowl, combine the graham cracker crumbs, granulated sugar, and melted butter. Stir until the crumbs are evenly moistened. Press the mixture firmly and evenly into the bottom and up the sides of the prepared pie dish.
- Blind bake the crust. Bake the crust for 8 minutes, until just set and lightly golden. Remove from the oven and allow to cool slightly while you prepare the filling. Leave the oven on.
- Make the filling. In a large bowl, whisk together the egg yolks and lime zest for about 2 minutes until the yolks lighten slightly. Add the sweetened condensed milk and whisk until fully combined. Add the lime juice and whisk until smooth and uniform.
- Fill and bake. Pour the filling into the warm crust. Bake for 15 minutes, until the filling is set around the edges but has a slight jiggle in the center. Do not overbake.
- Cool and chill. Remove the pie from the oven and let it cool to room temperature on a wire rack, about 30 minutes. Transfer to the refrigerator and chill for at least 2 hours, or until fully set.
- Make the whipped cream. When ready to serve, beat the heavy cream and powdered sugar together with a hand mixer or stand mixer on medium-high speed until soft peaks form, about 3 minutes.
- Serve. Slice the pie into 8 pieces. Top each slice with a dollop of whipped cream and a thin lime slice if desired. Serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 520 | Protein: 9g | Fat: 26g | Carbs: 64g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 210mg