February is approaching and I feel something I haven't felt in a long time: anticipation. Not anxious anticipation, not the scan-day dread, but the forward-leaning anticipation of someone who is looking forward to things. Lily's riding lesson. The reconstruction surgery in spring. Friday pizza nights. My new recipe challenge. Things are happening that I chose, not things that happened to me, and the difference is the difference between drowning and swimming — same water, different relationship with it.
At the clinic, I'm finding my stride as lead tech. The staff is responsive. The systems Sandra built are solid, and I'm improving them at the margins — a better inventory spreadsheet, a more logical scheduling template, a training checklist for new techs that I wish had existed when I started. Jamie is my unofficial second-in-command, and she's growing into someone capable and confident, and watching her grow reminds me that my job isn't just medicine — it's mentorship, and mentorship is just another word for feeding people. You feed them knowledge instead of food, but the act is the same: you have something, you give it, they're better for it.
The custody weekend went smoothly this month. Scott picked up on time. The kids came back on time. Mason reported that Scott took them sledding. Lily reported that Scott made "burnt pancakes," which I chose not to comment on, because Scott's pancakes being burnt is not my problem anymore, and the freedom of not caring about someone else's burnt pancakes is a joy I did not anticipate.
I told Lily about the riding lessons. The scream was everything I expected: sustained, high-pitched, the kind of sound that makes dogs and neighbors look up with concern. She jumped on the couch, fell off the couch, got back on the couch, and jumped again, and then she ran to tell Hank, who was unmoved, and then she ran to tell Mason, who said, "That's cool, Lily," with the measured enthusiasm of a six-year-old who does not understand why horses are exciting but knows his sister is happy and that's enough.
New recipe #5: chicken tikka masala. A proper one, with marinated chicken, a spiced tomato cream sauce, served over rice. It took an hour and the kitchen smelled like India, or my imagination of India, and the sauce was rich and warm and the chicken was tender and Mason said, "This is fancy," and Lily said, "It's orange," and I said, "It's Tuesday," and the ranch girl from Idaho served chicken tikka masala to her children on a Tuesday night in January, and the world expanded by one dish, which is how the world always expands: one new thing at a time.
So here it is — new recipe #5, the one that turned my kitchen orange and made Mason say “fancy” and made Lily state the obvious. Chicken tikka masala felt like a big swing for a Tuesday, but that’s the whole point of this challenge: choosing things instead of letting things happen to me. The marinade takes a little patience, and the sauce asks you to trust the spices, but when it all comes together, your kitchen smells like possibility, and you serve it to your kids, and the world gets one dish wider.
Chicken Tikka Masala
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 40 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour | Servings: 6
Ingredients
For the Chicken Marinade:
- 2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken thighs, cut into bite-sized pieces
- 1 cup plain whole-milk yogurt
- 2 tablespoons lemon juice
- 2 teaspoons ground cumin
- 2 teaspoons paprika
- 1 teaspoon ground turmeric
- 1 teaspoon garam masala
- 1 teaspoon salt
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/2 teaspoon cayenne pepper
For the Tikka Masala Sauce:
- 2 tablespoons butter
- 1 tablespoon olive oil
- 1 large yellow onion, finely diced
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 tablespoon fresh ginger, grated
- 2 teaspoons ground cumin
- 2 teaspoons paprika
- 1 teaspoon garam masala
- 1 teaspoon ground coriander
- 1/2 teaspoon ground turmeric
- 1/4 teaspoon cayenne pepper
- 1 can (14.5 oz) crushed tomatoes
- 1 can (8 oz) tomato sauce
- 1 cup heavy cream
- 1 teaspoon sugar
- Salt to taste
- Fresh cilantro for garnish
- Cooked basmati rice for serving
Instructions
- Marinate the chicken. In a large bowl, combine yogurt, lemon juice, cumin, paprika, turmeric, garam masala, salt, pepper, and cayenne. Add chicken pieces and toss to coat. Cover and refrigerate for at least 30 minutes or up to overnight.
- Cook the chicken. Preheat your broiler to high. Thread marinated chicken onto skewers or spread on a foil-lined baking sheet. Broil for 4-5 minutes per side until the chicken is charred in spots and cooked through. Set aside.
- Build the sauce. In a large, deep skillet or Dutch oven over medium heat, melt butter with olive oil. Add the diced onion and cook until soft and golden, about 5-6 minutes. Add garlic and ginger and cook for 1 minute until fragrant.
- Add the spices. Stir in cumin, paprika, garam masala, coriander, turmeric, and cayenne. Cook for 30 seconds, stirring constantly, until the spices are toasted and fragrant.
- Simmer the tomatoes. Pour in the crushed tomatoes and tomato sauce. Stir to combine, bring to a simmer, and cook for 15 minutes, stirring occasionally, until the sauce thickens slightly.
- Finish with cream. Reduce heat to low and stir in the heavy cream and sugar. Add the cooked chicken pieces to the sauce and stir gently to coat. Simmer for 5 minutes until everything is heated through and the flavors meld together. Season with salt to taste.
- Serve. Spoon chicken tikka masala over cooked basmati rice. Garnish with fresh cilantro. Serve hot and let it turn your Tuesday into something fancy.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 420 | Protein: 34g | Fat: 24g | Carbs: 16g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 680mg