The week after the anniversary felt like the week after a fever breaks — shaky, light-headed, new. I survived it. Not just survived — I cooked through it. I made the chicken. I ate the thigh. I left the plate for Curtis. And now it's Monday and the world continues and I am still here and the stove is still here and the Folgers can is back on my counter where it belongs and I am standing in my kitchen making breakfast for my children and the morning is ordinary and ordinary is the gift. Ordinary is the whole gift.
Derek and I had our second coffee. This time I chose the place — a café near the school, no-frills, good coffee, a booth in the back where two adults can talk without the entire church knowing about it. (The church will know eventually. The church always knows. New Birth Missionary Baptist has an information network that would make the CIA weep.) We talked about our kids. We talked about co-parenting. We talked about what it's like to be a single parent in Atlanta, which is both exhausting and specific — the traffic, the cost, the way the city holds Black families in a grip that's half embrace and half struggle.
He told me about Isaiah's anger. It's bigger than he let on at the first coffee. Isaiah is twelve and furious — at the divorce, at Lydia for leaving (she initiated, which Derek said without blame but also without hiding), at Derek for not stopping it. The anger comes out sideways: grades dropping, fights at school, a refusal to eat meals that feels like a refusal to receive care. I listened and I thought: I know this boy. I've counseled a hundred boys like this. The anger is grief in a costume. It's love that doesn't know where to go.
I didn't offer advice. I'm not his counselor. I'm the woman having coffee with his father. But I said, "The anger is temporary. What he's asking for underneath it isn't." Derek looked at me. He looked at me the way people look at you when you've said the thing they needed to hear but couldn't say to themselves. He said, "Thank you." Just that. Thank you. Two words from a quiet man that weighed more than a paragraph.
Made chicken tikka masala for dinner — my first attempt at Indian food, from a recipe I found online and modified with my own instincts. Cumin, coriander, garam masala, a tomato-cream sauce that turned the kitchen into somewhere exotic and warm. Marcus ate it skeptically and then ate two plates. Jasmine ate it enthusiastically and asked for "the orange sauce" with rice. The orange sauce. I'm expanding. Mama's Folgers can is still on the counter, but next to it now is a jar of garam masala and a bag of basmati rice and the kitchen is growing the way I'm growing — wider, more varied, still rooted but reaching.
That chicken tikka masala was the meal that told me something about where I’m headed. After a week of surviving anniversaries and sitting across from a good man over coffee and holding space for a boy’s anger, I needed to make something I’d never made before. Something that smelled like possibility. The cumin and coriander and garam masala turned my kitchen into new territory, and when Marcus went back for a second plate and Jasmine asked for “the orange sauce,” I knew this recipe had earned a permanent spot next to Mama’s Folgers can. Here’s how I made it.
Chicken Tikka Masala
Prep Time: 20 minutes | Cook Time: 35 minutes | Total Time: 55 minutes | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- For the chicken marinade:
- 2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken thighs, cut into bite-sized pieces
- 1 cup plain whole-milk yogurt
- 2 tablespoons lemon juice
- 1 tablespoon ground cumin
- 1 tablespoon ground coriander
- 1 teaspoon garam masala
- 1 teaspoon turmeric
- 1 teaspoon paprika
- 1 teaspoon salt
- 1/2 teaspoon cayenne pepper
- For the sauce:
- 2 tablespoons butter
- 1 tablespoon vegetable oil
- 1 large yellow onion, finely diced
- 4 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 tablespoon fresh ginger, grated
- 1 tablespoon ground cumin
- 1 tablespoon ground coriander
- 2 teaspoons garam masala
- 1 teaspoon turmeric
- 1 teaspoon paprika
- 1 can (14 oz) crushed tomatoes
- 1 cup heavy cream
- 1 teaspoon sugar
- Salt and pepper to taste
- Fresh cilantro for garnish
- For serving:
- 3 cups basmati rice, cooked according to package directions
Instructions
- Marinate the chicken. In a large bowl, combine yogurt, lemon juice, cumin, coriander, garam masala, turmeric, paprika, salt, and cayenne. Add chicken pieces and toss to coat. Cover and refrigerate for at least 30 minutes or up to overnight.
- Cook the chicken. Heat a large skillet or grill pan over medium-high heat. Remove chicken from marinade, shaking off excess. Cook chicken pieces in batches for 3 to 4 minutes per side until charred and cooked through. Set aside on a plate.
- Build the sauce. In a large, deep skillet or Dutch oven, melt butter with oil over medium heat. Add onion and cook for 5 to 7 minutes until soft and golden. Add garlic and ginger and cook for 1 minute until fragrant.
- Add the spices. Stir in cumin, coriander, garam masala, turmeric, and paprika. Cook for 1 minute, stirring constantly, until the spices are toasted and aromatic.
- Simmer the tomatoes. Pour in crushed tomatoes and stir well. Let the sauce simmer for 10 minutes, stirring occasionally, until it thickens slightly.
- Finish with cream. Reduce heat to low. Stir in heavy cream and sugar. Season with salt and pepper. Let the sauce simmer gently for 5 minutes — do not boil once the cream is added.
- Combine. Add the cooked chicken pieces to the sauce and stir to coat. Simmer together for 5 minutes so the chicken absorbs the flavors.
- Serve. Spoon chicken tikka masala over basmati rice. Garnish with fresh cilantro. Serve warm.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 485 | Protein: 34g | Fat: 24g | Carbs: 35g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 640mg