There is a photograph above my stove. I will mention this many times. It does not get less true. The week was a winter week, the kind where the light through the kitchen window arrives at a particular angle and the freezer hums in a different register depending on the temperature in the garage. I made notes in my prep notebook on Sunday afternoon, the way I always do: meal name, ingredient list, cost per serving, prep time, freezer instructions. Twenty-eight bags. Two hours and eleven minutes. A little slow this week, by my standards, but Brandon was helping and the conversation was good, and I have learned, slowly and against my own grain, that the conversation is sometimes the point and the time is sometimes a courtesy I extend to my husband for being willing to chop onions on a Sunday afternoon.
The children are doing what they do, which is the central report of every week of my adult life. Ethan is 21, in Manila on his mission, and his last email mentioned a chicken adobo so good he is going to make me make it when he comes home. Olivia is 19, at BYU studying elementary education — the path she chose at age seven and has not deviated from once. Mason, 17, is in Brazil on his mission. His weekly emails are short and full of jokes. He does not write much about the work. He writes about the food. Lily is 15, in high school, asking the kind of questions in Sunday School that make the teachers uncomfortable, which I find difficult and also, secretly, admirable. Noah is 12, the comedian, the performer — the kid who does an impression of my disappointed face in front of company, and gets away with it. That is the family report. I do not have a system for these reports. I just listen and remember and call back when I said I would call back, which is most of the time and not all of the time, and the difference between most and all is the territory of motherhood.
The recipe of the week was classic beef chili, which I have made some specific number of times in my life and have refined to a system that I now hand to other people in printed form. The version I made this week fed eight, cost under fifteen dollars, and required twenty-six minutes of active prep, which is within my requirements and not a coincidence. I labeled every bag — meal, date, reheating instructions, servings — because future-me is the woman I am writing for, and future-me is tired. I have stopped explaining the freezer-meal philosophy to people who already follow my work, and I have stopped apologizing for it to people who do not. The philosophy is simple: tomorrow is coming whether you are ready or not. You can either be ready or not. I pick ready.
Brandon and I sat at the kitchen island on Thursday night and did not talk much, and the not-talking was a language we built in therapy and have refused to unlearn. We have been married a long time. The arithmetic of it is the arithmetic of my whole life. There were years we missed each other in the same room, and there are years we find each other in the silences, and this is one of the latter, and I am old enough now to know that the latter is the achievement and the former was the cost.
Twenty-eight bags. Labeled. Dated. Stacked. The week, in the only currency that matters in this house.
The chili goes in the freezer every winter without question — it’s earned that permanence — but on the Sundays when Brandon is still at the island and the conversation has stretched long enough that I’ve lost track of the clock, I reach for this Cheesy Sausage Stromboli as a second batch. It labels well, reheats without apology, and slices cleanly from frozen, which is the highest praise I give anything in this kitchen. Ethan used to call it “the roll thing” and eat it cold out of the bag before I could stop him. I still make extra for that reason, even now that he’s in Manila and the bag goes untouched until Thursday.
Cheesy Sausage Stromboli
Prep Time: 25 min | Cook Time: 28 min | Total Time: 53 min | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 1 lb bulk Italian sausage (mild or hot)
- 1 lb store-bought or homemade pizza dough, at room temperature
- 1 1/2 cups shredded mozzarella cheese
- 1/2 cup shredded provolone cheese
- 1/3 cup diced green bell pepper
- 1/4 cup diced yellow onion
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 tsp Italian seasoning
- 1/2 tsp crushed red pepper flakes (optional)
- 1 tbsp olive oil
- 1 large egg, beaten (for egg wash)
- 1 tbsp grated Parmesan, for topping
- Marinara sauce, for serving or dipping
Instructions
- Preheat oven. Heat oven to 400°F. Line a large baking sheet with parchment paper and set aside.
- Cook the filling. In a large skillet over medium heat, warm the olive oil. Add the sausage, bell pepper, and onion. Cook, breaking up the sausage, until fully browned and vegetables are softened, about 8–10 minutes. Add the garlic, Italian seasoning, and red pepper flakes. Stir and cook 1 minute more. Drain any excess fat and let the mixture cool for 5 minutes.
- Roll the dough. On a lightly floured surface, roll or stretch the pizza dough into a rectangle roughly 12 x 15 inches. Position it with the long side facing you.
- Layer the filling. Scatter the mozzarella and provolone evenly over the dough, leaving a 1-inch border on all edges. Spoon the cooled sausage mixture evenly over the cheese.
- Roll and seal. Starting at the long edge closest to you, roll the dough tightly into a log. Pinch the seam firmly to seal. Tuck and pinch the ends under. Place seam-side down on the prepared baking sheet.
- Egg wash and score. Brush the entire surface with the beaten egg. Sprinkle with Parmesan. Use a sharp knife to cut 4–5 shallow diagonal slits across the top to allow steam to escape.
- Bake. Bake at 400°F for 25–28 minutes, until deep golden brown and the internal temperature reads 165°F. Let rest 5 minutes before slicing.
- Slice and serve. Cut into 8 even slices. Serve with warm marinara on the side.
- Freezer instructions. Cool completely. Wrap the whole stromboli (or individual slices) tightly in plastic wrap, then in foil. Label with meal name, date, reheating instructions, and servings. Freeze up to 3 months. To reheat: unwrap and bake at 350°F for 20–25 minutes from frozen, or 12–15 minutes from thawed.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 395 | Protein: 19g | Fat: 22g | Carbs: 30g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 740mg