February. The mainland states are buried. We had rain Tuesday. Ryan was on duty at Miramar. Standard week.
Caleb, 7, wants to be a firefighter still. Has not deviated. Hazel, 3, chaos incarnate. Put a peanut butter sandwich in the DVD player Wednesday. Showed zero remorse.
Shepherd's pie Sunday. Ground beef and frozen peas and instant mashed potatoes because I am a woman who knows her limits.
The freezer is the secret. The freezer was full this week.
The PCS rumors are starting again. The official orders will come in a few months. We could move. We could stay. The waiting is the worst part. Three years here and I have learned to not put down deep roots in any military town. Nineteen-year-old me would not have believed how good I have gotten at packing.
I made a casserole for a neighbor whose husband is deployed. I dropped it off. She cried. I told her, eat the casserole, baby. The food is the saying. The casserole was a mostly-frozen tater-tot situation that took fifteen minutes of effort and six months of practice to perfect.
Caleb's school had a fundraiser this week. I baked cookies because I always bake cookies. The cookies were the standard chocolate chip. They sold out in twenty minutes. I am the cookie mom of this PTO and I have stopped fighting it.
My therapy session was Tuesday. We talked about the deployment cycle and the way the body holds dread and the ways the body holds it. The hour passed. The work continues. I have been doing this work for years. The work pays.
The military spouses' Facebook group had a small drama this week. Two women fighting over the playgroup schedule. I muted notifications and cooked dinner. Some weeks the group is the lifeline. Some weeks it is the source of unnecessary stress. The skill is knowing which week you're in.
Donna sent a recipe card in the mail this week. She has been doing this for years. The recipes go in the binder. The binder is full. The newest one is for a green bean casserole that uses fresh green beans and fried shallots and which I will absolutely make for the next holiday.
I sat at the kitchen table Tuesday night writing in the journal. Volume 10 now. The handwriting has not gotten neater. The journals are a record of the life I am living, in the moment, in tiny script that I will look back on someday and not be able to read. That is okay. The writing was the thing.
Ryan came home tired Wednesday. He showered, ate, sat on the couch, was asleep by eight. Standard for a Marine who has been up since four-thirty for PT and stayed late for a brief. The schedule is the schedule. The body adapts because it has to.
The kids' soccer game was Saturday morning. The other parents brought oranges and Capri Suns. I brought a thermos of coffee for myself and a folding chair I bought at Target three years ago that has been to four duty stations now. The chair is a more loyal companion than some of my friends.
Reading another military memoir at night. They make Ryan tense. They steady me. We negotiate. He doesn't ask what I'm reading. I don't tell him. The arrangement works.
I went for a walk Sunday morning before the kids got up. Half an hour. The fog was burning off. I needed it. Some weeks I get the walk in. Some weeks I don't. The week tells me which.
Ryan's friends came over Friday for a beer. I made wings and chips. They demolished both. Standard Marine appetite — they eat like they are still on rations. The kitchen looked like a battlefield by the end. They cleaned up. Marines clean up. Donna would have been impressed.
The shepherd’s pie this week was the right call — ground beef, frozen peas, instant mashed potatoes, done — but honestly, these Caramelized Onion Beef Sliders are what I’m making next Sunday, because Ryan’s friends showed up Friday and demolished everything in sight, and sliders are the exact kind of food that disappears fast and requires no explanation. They’re the casserole you bring a neighbor and the wings you set out for Marines: practical, generous, and made by someone who knows her limits and has stopped apologizing for it.
Caramelized Onion Beef Sliders
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 35 min | Total Time: 50 min | Servings: 12 sliders
Ingredients
- 1 1/2 lbs ground beef (80/20)
- 2 large yellow onions, thinly sliced
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter
- 1 tablespoon olive oil
- 1 teaspoon Worcestershire sauce
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/2 teaspoon onion powder
- Salt and black pepper to taste
- 6 slices provolone or Swiss cheese, halved
- 12 slider buns (Hawaiian rolls work well)
- 2 tablespoons mayonnaise
- 1 tablespoon Dijon mustard
- 2 tablespoons melted butter (for tops)
- 1 teaspoon everything bagel seasoning or sesame seeds (optional)
Instructions
- Caramelize the onions. In a large skillet over medium-low heat, melt 2 tablespoons butter with the olive oil. Add the sliced onions and a pinch of salt. Cook, stirring occasionally, for 25–30 minutes until deeply golden and soft. Don’t rush this — low and slow is the whole point. Set aside.
- Cook the beef. Raise the heat to medium-high. Add the ground beef to the same skillet, breaking it apart with a spatula. Season with garlic powder, onion powder, Worcestershire sauce, salt, and pepper. Cook until browned and no pink remains, about 7–8 minutes. Drain excess fat.
- Combine. Stir the caramelized onions back into the cooked beef. Taste and adjust seasoning as needed.
- Preheat and prep buns. Preheat oven to 350°F. Slice the slider buns in half horizontally, keeping them connected as a sheet if using rolls. Place the bottom halves in a greased 9x13 baking dish.
- Spread the sauce. Mix the mayonnaise and Dijon mustard and spread evenly over the bottom buns.
- Layer and top. Spoon the beef and onion mixture evenly over the bottom buns. Lay the cheese slices over the beef. Place the top buns on. Brush the tops with melted butter and sprinkle with everything bagel seasoning if using.
- Bake. Cover loosely with foil and bake for 10 minutes. Remove foil and bake another 5 minutes until the tops are golden and the cheese is melted.
- Serve. Pull apart and serve immediately. They will not last long.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 310 | Protein: 17g | Fat: 16g | Carbs: 24g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 430mg