The Helen's notebook has forty pages now. Business plan. Menu. Financial projections (updated by Megan quarterly, because she is a teacher who treats our dream like a lesson plan with benchmarks and assessments). Location research. Equipment costs. Staffing plans. The notebook is becoming a business case. The dream is becoming a proposal. Not ready. Not yet. But the notebook is heavy with intention.
I've been visiting storefronts in Bay View on my lunch breaks. Not shopping — scouting. Walking down Kinnickinnic Avenue and looking at the storefronts and imagining which one could be Helen's. The empty ones. The for-lease signs. The spaces that are too big or too small or too far from foot traffic. The perfect one doesn't exist yet. But I'm looking. And looking is the step before finding.
Tommy is two and a half and he \"helps\" at the counter now with regularity. He stands on his step stool and puts his hands in the flour and says, "Dada, peee-oh-gee!" He can't fold yet. He can barely roll. But he touches the dough and he feels it and he watches me and the watching is the learning. Babcia watched her mother. I watched Babcia. Tommy watches me. The chain is not metaphorical. It is literal. It happens at counters, in flour, with small hands learning what dough feels like.
Made a simple shrimp pasta — garlic, white wine, lemon, parsley, linguine. The kind of meal I make in twenty minutes after a brewery shift when the kids need feeding and Megan needs feeding and everyone needs something that takes less effort than the effort I have left. The meal of exhaustion and efficiency. The meal of a working parent. It was good. It's always good. Garlic and butter cover a multitude of sins.
The small future-kid-conversations have begun. Megan teaches small fourth-grade at a small public school in Wauwatosa. The small adoption-vs-biological conversation is in the small early-discussion stage. The small five-year-plan includes the small kid-or-kids in some form. The small kitchen is the small place where the small future is being practiced.
The small Lakefront Brewery shift-work continues to be the small steady-paycheck. The small forty-hour-week brewery-floor job pays the small twenty-two-an-hour rate that the small Milwaukee-blue-collar-economy supports. The small benefits are the small union-decent. The small ten-year-tenure-target is the small career-anchor.
Megan is from a small Irish-Catholic Milwaukee-suburban family. The small Sunday-dinners at her small parents’ house rotate with the small Sunday-dinners at Jake’s parents’ house. The small in-laws on both sides have been the small welcoming-presence. The small two-family-network is the small extended-support the small newlywed-life rests on.
Megan and Jake married in June 2024. The small newlywed-rhythm is in its small second year. The small two-bedroom rental on the small east-side of Milwaukee continues to be the small first-home. The small thirty-year-mortgage-eventually-someday is the small five-year-goal. The small marriage is the small foundation the small life is being built on.
The small Lakefront Brewery shift-work continues to be the small steady-paycheck. The small forty-hour-week brewery-floor job pays the small twenty-two-an-hour rate that the small Milwaukee-blue-collar-economy supports. The small benefits are the small union-decent. The small ten-year-tenure-target is the small career-anchor.
The small Polish-American heritage is the small kitchen-identity. The small pierogi-recipe-cards from Babcia Helen (Jake’s grandmother who passed in 2018, who had lived two blocks from the small Bay-View family-house) is the small monthly-Saturday-tradition. The small kielbasa-and-sauerkraut. The small bigos. The small recipes that came over from the small Krakow-region in the small 1910s.
Megan is from a small Irish-Catholic Milwaukee-suburban family. The small Sunday-dinners at her small parents’ house rotate with the small Sunday-dinners at Jake’s parents’ house. The small in-laws on both sides have been the small welcoming-presence. The small two-family-network is the small extended-support the small newlywed-life rests on.
The small Milwaukee-winter is the small six-month-condition. The small cold-weather-comfort-food rotation runs October through April. The small soups, the small stews, the small braises, the small heavy-baked-goods. The small Midwestern-comfort-vocabulary is the small kitchen-language.
The small future-kid-conversations have begun. Megan teaches small fourth-grade at a small public school in Wauwatosa. The small adoption-vs-biological conversation is in the small early-discussion stage. The small five-year-plan includes the small kid-or-kids in some form. The small kitchen is the small place where the small future is being practiced.
That shrimp pasta got dinner on the table, but it was the broccoli cheese fan I threw together on the side that Tommy actually reached for first — little flour-dusted hands grabbing for something bright and melty while I stood at the stove still in my brewery clothes. When you’re running on fumes and the notebook full of dreams is sitting on the counter waiting for you, you need a side dish that asks almost nothing from you. This one clears that bar every time.
Broccoli Cheese Fan
Prep Time: 10 min | Cook Time: 18 min | Total Time: 28 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 large head broccoli (about 1 1/2 lbs), stem trimmed flat so it stands upright
- 2 tablespoons unsalted butter, melted
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 1/4 teaspoon kosher salt
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/8 teaspoon red pepper flakes (optional)
- 3/4 cup shredded sharp cheddar cheese
- 2 tablespoons grated Parmesan
- 1 tablespoon fresh lemon juice
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat oven to 425°F. Line a small baking sheet with foil or parchment. Cut the broccoli head into thin vertical slices (about 1/2-inch thick), keeping each slice attached at the base of the stem so the florets fan out. Place flat on the prepared baking sheet.
- Season. Stir the minced garlic into the melted butter. Brush the mixture generously over each broccoli fan, getting into the crevices between the florets. Season with salt, pepper, and red pepper flakes if using.
- Roast. Roast in the preheated oven for 12 minutes, until the edges of the florets begin to crisp and the stems are just tender when pierced with a fork.
- Add the cheese. Pull the pan out and sprinkle the cheddar and Parmesan evenly over the fans. Return to the oven for 4–6 more minutes, until the cheese is fully melted and lightly golden at the edges.
- Finish and serve. Remove from the oven, squeeze lemon juice over the top, and serve immediately — directly from the pan if you’re that kind of parent, which on a weeknight you absolutely are.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 180 | Protein: 10g | Fat: 12g | Carbs: 9g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 310mg