Week two of school. The novelty has worn off. The terror has settled into a steady hum. I'm not panicking anymore — I'm just tired. The kind of tired that lives in your bones and your eyes and the way your hands shake slightly when you're holding a textbook at 11 PM and the words are blurring together. But I keep reading. Sarah Mitchell keeps reading.
The class is dental anatomy this semester — learning every surface, every ridge, every name of every tooth in the human mouth. There are 32 adult teeth and each one has multiple names and surfaces and I have to know all of them. I made flashcards on the bus. I quiz myself in the Waffle House break room. Mr. Gerald saw me studying and said, "What are you reading, sweetheart?" and I said, "The names of teeth," and he opened his mouth and pointed to his molar and said, "What's this one called?" and I said, "That's a second molar, Mr. Gerald," and he said, "Well I'll be." He tipped me five dollars that day. Knowledge pays.
Chloe starts pre-K next week and she is READY. She has her backpack loaded. She's been practicing writing her name — C-H-L-O-E — on every piece of paper in the house, including the back of my electric bill, which I discovered when I went to mail it. Her letters are big and shaky and she puts a heart over the "O" instead of a dot because she is four and she is extra. I love her so much it makes my teeth hurt, which is ironic given my current field of study.
Jayden is seventeen months old and has learned to climb. Not walk — CLIMB. He scaled the couch, then the kitchen chair, then attempted the bookshelf like a tiny mountaineer with zero regard for gravity or parental sanity. I found him sitting on the kitchen table on Thursday morning, eating a banana he'd stolen from the fruit bowl, looking at me with absolute triumph. How did you get up there? How? You are two feet tall and the table is three feet high. Physics does not support this. But there he was. King of the kitchen table. Conqueror of furniture. Holder of stolen bananas.
I made biscuits and gravy this week. Not from scratch — not the biscuits, anyway. I used canned biscuits because it was 6 AM and I had thirty minutes before I had to leave and from-scratch biscuits require a level of commitment I cannot offer at dawn. But the gravy was real: breakfast sausage, flour, milk, salt, pepper, cooked in the cast iron. Earline's method. You brown the sausage, leave the grease in the pan, add flour to make a roux, then pour in the milk slowly until it thickens. That's it. Five minutes. The gravy is where the love is. The biscuits are just the vehicle. Nobody judges a car by the tires.
I told Mama this week that I'm grateful. Not in a big speech — just at the door, when she was handing me Jayden after watching them all day. I said, "Mama, I don't say it enough. Thank you." She said, "Don't get sappy." She also squeezed my arm as I walked out, which is Lorraine for "I heard you and I love you and you're welcome and don't you dare cry in my doorway."
Saying thank you out loud to Mama—even just those few words at the door—left me wanting to do something that felt like her, like us, like all the mornings she kept us fed without making a fuss about it. So here’s the recipe I made that morning: canned biscuits, no apologies, and Earline’s gravy the way it’s always been done.
Biscuits and Gravy (Canned Biscuits, Earline’s Gravy)
Prep Time: 5 min | Cook Time: 20 min | Total Time: 25 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 can (16 oz) refrigerated biscuits (8 count)
- 1 lb breakfast sausage (pork, regular or mild)
- 3 tablespoons all-purpose flour
- 2 1/2 cups whole milk
- 1/2 teaspoon black pepper (plus more to taste)
- 1/4 teaspoon salt
- Pinch of crushed red pepper flakes (optional)
Instructions
- Bake the biscuits. Preheat oven and bake biscuits according to package directions (usually 375°F for 13–15 minutes). Get them in the oven first so they’re ready when the gravy is done.
- Brown the sausage. In a large cast iron skillet over medium-high heat, add the sausage. Break it up with a wooden spoon and cook until browned and cooked through, about 6–8 minutes. Do not drain the grease — you need it for the roux.
- Build the roux. Reduce heat to medium. Sprinkle the flour directly over the sausage and drippings. Stir continuously for 1–2 minutes until the flour is absorbed and the mixture turns slightly golden. It should look like wet, crumbled sand.
- Add the milk slowly. Pour in the milk a little at a time, stirring constantly after each addition. This prevents lumps. Once all the milk is in, keep stirring as the gravy heats and begins to thicken, about 3–5 minutes.
- Season and finish. Add salt, black pepper, and red pepper flakes if using. Taste and adjust. The gravy should coat the back of a spoon. If it’s too thick, splash in a bit more milk. If too thin, cook another minute or two.
- Serve. Split hot biscuits open on plates and ladle gravy generously over the top. Eat while it’s hot.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 610 | Protein: 22g | Fat: 38g | Carbs: 45g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 1180mg