James has received his SAT scores: 1420. It is a number that means very little to anyone outside the peculiar economy of college admissions, but within that economy, it is currency — enough to keep College of Charleston comfortable, enough to make USC possible, enough to make Emory a reach but not an impossibility. James is pleased in his understated way. Robert is thrilled in his more visible way. I am proud and also aware that a number on a test does not measure the things about my son that matter most: his kindness, his voice, the way he reads Morrison as if the words are water and he is thirsty.
I am in my final weeks as branch manager. The transition to Priya is going smoothly — she is capable, organized, and has the particular combination of warmth and firmness that good librarians require. I am teaching her the things that aren't in any manual: which patrons need extra attention, which community partners respond to emails and which require phone calls, how to handle the annual budget review without losing either your funding or your dignity.
The recipe card project is growing. I have written thirty-seven cards so far, each one a translation of Mama's cooking into written language. The process has taught me something unexpected: Mama's recipes are not just food. They are theology. The way she seasons — generous, abundant, trusting that more is more — reflects Reverend James's preaching style: you don't hold back. You give everything. You trust that the recipient can handle the abundance. The way she cooks slowly — four-hour collards, three-hour stews — reflects a faith in patience, in the belief that time transforms what urgency cannot. I am writing a cookbook. I am also writing a spiritual memoir. The two are the same thing.
I made pecan pie this week — Mama's recipe, which uses dark corn syrup and bourbon and more pecans than seems structurally sound. The pie holds together by some combination of sugar chemistry and faith. I made it for no reason except that the pecans at the market were fresh and because sometimes cooking something elaborate on a Tuesday is its own form of prayer: a declaration that this day, this ordinary day, deserves the same attention as a holiday.
Mama’s pecan pie is a once-in-a-while offering — the kind that requires patience and bourbon and a particular quality of pecans. But the spirit behind it, that conviction that an ordinary day deserves the same devotion as a holiday, lives just as fully in a buttermilk cobbler. This one came together on a quiet evening the same week I wrote the pie card: berries from the same market, a generous pour of buttermilk, the oven doing the slow, faithful work that transforms simple things into something worth gathering around. If cooking is theology, cobbler is the everyday sermon.
Berry Buttermilk Cobbler
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 45 minutes | Total Time: 1 hour | Servings: 8
Ingredients
- 1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter
- 1 cup all-purpose flour
- 1 cup granulated sugar, divided
- 1 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
- 1/4 teaspoon fine sea salt
- 1 cup whole buttermilk
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- 4 cups mixed fresh berries (blackberries, blueberries, and sliced strawberries)
- 1 tablespoon fresh lemon juice
- 1/2 teaspoon lemon zest
- 1/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
- Vanilla ice cream or whipped cream, for serving (optional)
Instructions
- Melt the butter. Preheat your oven to 350°F. Place the butter in a 9x13-inch baking dish and set it in the oven while it preheats, just until the butter melts. Remove the dish and tilt to coat the bottom evenly.
- Make the batter. In a medium bowl, whisk together the flour, 3/4 cup of the sugar, baking powder, and salt. Add the buttermilk and vanilla extract and stir until just combined — a few small lumps are fine. Do not overmix.
- Pour the batter. Pour the buttermilk batter directly over the melted butter in the baking dish. Do not stir. The butter will rise around the edges and that is exactly what you want.
- Prepare the berries. In a separate bowl, toss the mixed berries with the lemon juice, lemon zest, cinnamon, and the remaining 1/4 cup of sugar. Let them sit for 5 minutes until slightly syrupy.
- Add the berries. Spoon the berry mixture evenly over the top of the batter. Again, do not stir. The batter will rise up and around the berries as it bakes.
- Bake. Bake for 40–45 minutes, until the top is deep golden brown and a toothpick inserted into the cake portion (not a berry) comes out clean. The edges should be set and slightly crisp where the butter has caramelized.
- Rest and serve. Allow the cobbler to cool for at least 15 minutes before serving — the filling will be very hot and needs time to settle. Serve warm, with vanilla ice cream or a spoonful of whipped cream if you like.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 310 | Protein: 3g | Fat: 13g | Carbs: 47g | Fiber: 3g | Sodium: 180mg