I received my first vaccine dose on Thursday. The shot was administered in the gymnasium of a high school in Rockville Centre — not my high school, a different one, but a gymnasium is a gymnasium, and the irony of receiving a lifesaving injection in a room designed for dodgeball was not lost on me. I sat in the observation area for fifteen minutes afterward, as instructed, and I looked at the other people sitting in their folding chairs — other teachers, other seniors, other caregivers — and we were all quiet, all processing the same thing: the needle went in, the vaccine went in, the bridge is being built. I felt nothing. Not the shot — the shot felt like a shot, a pinch, nothing — but the meaning of it, the significance, the fact that this small needle was the difference between this life and the life I want back. I will feel it later. For now, I sit in the folding chair and I wait my fifteen minutes and I drive home and I make dinner.
Marvin does not understand the vaccine. I explained it to him and he said, "That's good," which is his response to most information now — a cheerful, content, non-specific acknowledgment that something has happened and that it is probably fine. I kissed his forehead when I got home, which I have not done since March because I was afraid of giving him something that would kill him, and the kiss was not a grand gesture, it was a small one, a reintroduction of intimacy that I had not realized I had been rationing. The kiss was on his forehead and he smiled and said, "Hello, Ruth," and the "hello" was like a door opening, the door between quarantine and after, and I walked through it, even if after hasn't arrived yet, even if the door is only slightly ajar.
I made a celebratory dinner — brisket, because what else, brisket is my language for every occasion — and I ate it with Marvin and the brisket was perfect and I was vaccinated and the world was still broken but slightly less broken, and slightly less broken is a direction, and a direction is enough.
Brisket was my first instinct, as it always is, but I had ribs in the refrigerator that had been waiting all week, and something about the long, slow cook of these Asian-spiced ribs felt right for a day that had asked me to be patient—to sit in a folding chair, to wait fifteen minutes, to trust that the small things accumulate into something. The soy and ginger and low heat do the same work: nothing dramatic, nothing instant, just time and warmth turning something ordinary into something worth sitting down for. Marvin had two helpings.
Asian Ribs
Prep Time: 15 minutes | Cook Time: 2 hours 45 minutes | Total Time: 3 hours | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 3 1/2 lbs pork spare ribs, membrane removed, cut into serving portions
- 1/2 cup soy sauce
- 1/4 cup hoisin sauce
- 3 tablespoons brown sugar, packed
- 2 tablespoons rice vinegar
- 1 tablespoon sesame oil
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 1 tablespoon fresh ginger, grated
- 1 teaspoon five-spice powder
- 1/2 teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes (optional)
- 2 green onions, thinly sliced, for garnish
- 1 tablespoon sesame seeds, for garnish
Instructions
- Make the marinade. Whisk together the soy sauce, hoisin sauce, brown sugar, rice vinegar, sesame oil, garlic, ginger, five-spice powder, and red pepper flakes (if using) in a bowl until the sugar dissolves.
- Marinate the ribs. Place the ribs in a large zip-top bag or baking dish and pour the marinade over them. Turn to coat thoroughly. Refrigerate for at least 1 hour, or up to overnight for deeper flavor.
- Preheat the oven. Heat oven to 300°F. Line a large rimmed baking sheet with foil and set a wire rack on top.
- Arrange and cover. Remove the ribs from the marinade, reserving the marinade. Lay the ribs bone-side down on the rack. Pour 1/2 cup water into the bottom of the pan and tent tightly with foil.
- Slow-roast. Bake covered for 2 hours, until the meat is tender and beginning to pull from the bones.
- Reduce the glaze. While the ribs roast, pour the reserved marinade into a small saucepan and bring to a boil over medium heat. Simmer 8—10 minutes, stirring occasionally, until thickened and syrupy. Set aside.
- Glaze and finish. Uncover the ribs, raise the oven temperature to 425°F, and brush the ribs generously with the reduced glaze. Return to oven uncovered for 15—20 minutes, glazing once more halfway through, until caramelized and deeply colored.
- Rest and serve. Let the ribs rest 5 minutes before plating. Garnish with green onions and sesame seeds and serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 530 | Protein: 34g | Fat: 37g | Carbs: 14g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 910mg