MLK Day. Home. Daddy's story. This year he went back to the beginning — not a specific person or event but the principle: "Every good thing this family has was built by somebody who showed up when they didn't have to." He looked at me and said, "You are showing up." He looked at Kayla (home from Lafayette for the weekend) and said, "You are showing up." He looked at Mama and said, "You have been showing up for thirty years." Mama said, "Thirty-two." Daddy said, "Thirty-two. I lost count." He had not lost count. He was being charming. Marcus Robinson is charming approximately twice a year, and this was one of those times.
I made smothered chicken. The ritual. The onion gravy, the slow simmer, the silence that follows the story and precedes the eating. Daddy ate. The eating was the response. The response was enough.
MawMaw Shirley did not come for MLK Day this year. She said the drive was too much. "The drive" is fifteen minutes. The fifteen minutes are too much because the getting-in and the getting-out and the standing and the sitting are not fifteen minutes — they are an hour of effort for fifteen minutes of driving, and at eighty-one the ratio has tipped. I called her after dinner. She said she was fine. She said she had made red beans. She said the red beans were "adequate," which is MawMaw Shirley for "excellent," because she does not compliment her own cooking the way she does not compliment anything — with restraint that is its own form of pride.
MCAT practice exam this week — my first full-length timed practice. Seven and a half hours. I sat at the kitchen table with a timer and a pencil and simulated the real thing, breaks included, and by hour five my brain was doing the thing that brains do under sustained pressure: it was trying to quit. It was suggesting alternatives. It was saying "maybe medical school is not the only path." I told my brain to be quiet. I told my brain that MawMaw Shirley stirred roux for thirty-five minutes without quitting and seven and a half hours is just thirteen roux-lengths and if MawMaw Shirley can stir thirteen roux-lengths then I can take one exam. My brain was not entirely convinced but my hands kept working and by hour seven the exam was done and I was alive and the practice score was in the 85th percentile, which is good but not 90th, and I need 90th, and the distance between 85th and 90th is the distance I will travel between now and July.
The smothered chicken is the heart of the meal — it always has been, and that recipe lives in my hands more than in any notebook. But what people keep asking me about are these bread bowls, the ones I started making a few years ago because I refused to let a single drop of onion gravy go to waste. If Daddy’s eating and the eating is the response, then the bread bowl is the punctuation — you tear it open at the end and you get every last bit, and nothing about that meal is left unfinished.
Artisan Bread Bowls
Prep Time: 20 min (plus 2 hrs rising) | Cook Time: 25 min | Total Time: 2 hrs 45 min | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 3 cups bread flour, plus more for dusting
- 2 1/4 tsp active dry yeast (1 standard packet)
- 1 tsp granulated sugar
- 1 1/4 tsp fine salt
- 1 cup warm water (105–110°F)
- 1 tbsp olive oil
- 1 egg white, lightly beaten (for crust wash)
Instructions
- Activate the yeast. In a large bowl, combine warm water and sugar. Sprinkle yeast over the top and let sit 5–10 minutes until foamy. If it doesn’t foam, your water was too hot or the yeast is old — start over.
- Mix the dough. Add olive oil and salt to the yeast mixture. Add flour one cup at a time, stirring with a wooden spoon until a shaggy dough forms. Turn out onto a lightly floured surface.
- Knead. Knead the dough for 8–10 minutes until it is smooth, elastic, and springs back when poked. Add flour a tablespoon at a time only if the dough is unworkably sticky.
- First rise. Shape the dough into a ball and place in a lightly oiled bowl. Cover with a clean kitchen towel and let rise in a warm spot for 1 to 1 1/2 hours, until doubled in size.
- Divide and shape. Punch the dough down and turn it onto a lightly floured surface. Divide into 6 equal pieces. Shape each piece into a tight, smooth round by pulling the edges underneath and pinching at the bottom. Place rounds seam-side down on two parchment-lined baking sheets.
- Second rise. Cover loosely and let rise 30–40 minutes until puffed. Preheat oven to 425°F during this time.
- Score and wash. Using a sharp knife or bread lame, score a shallow X across the top of each round. Brush the tops with beaten egg white for a deep, glossy crust.
- Bake. Bake for 22–26 minutes until the bowls are deep golden brown and sound hollow when tapped on the bottom. Transfer to a wire rack and cool at least 15 minutes before hollowing.
- Hollow the bowls. Slice off the top third of each round. Use your fingers to pull out the soft interior, leaving a 1/2-inch-thick wall all around. Reserve the torn bread for dipping.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 275 | Protein: 9g | Fat: 3g | Carbs: 52g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 390mg