Last week of February and I am standing at the edge of March with more equanimity than I have had in any of the previous five years. Not without awareness — I am always aware of what March carries toward me — but with a quality of steadiness that feels different from bracing. I am not bracing. I am just standing, already balanced, waiting for the month to arrive.
I baked a cake this week. No particular reason except that I wanted to, which is reason enough. I made a caramel layer cake — three layers, the cooked caramel frosting that my mother made for birthdays, the kind that hardens slightly on the outside while staying soft inside. This recipe requires patience and a candy thermometer and the specific timing that only comes from having made it wrong enough times to understand where wrong leads. I have made it wrong many times and right about as many. This one was right. I took photographs, which I do not always do, because I wanted to remember exactly how the layers looked when I cut it — the even height of each one, the caramel that went from frosting to glaze at the edge. There is a pride in getting it right that is quiet and private and real.
March arrives tomorrow. Fifth year. The baby will be born in August. This is what I am holding: the anniversary behind me, the birth ahead, the whole long continuity of which both are part. Marcus would have said something about that — about the way loss and new life keep happening on the same calendar, refusing to schedule themselves politely apart. He was a man who noticed those patterns. Maybe that's why I notice them too. You pick up the habits of the people you have loved long enough.
The caramel cake I made this week was its own thing — private, a little hard-won — but when I thought about what recipe to leave here for you, I wanted something that matched that same spirit: a cake that asks something of you, that rewards patience, that looks beautiful when you finally cut into it. This Amaretto Matcha Christmas Cake is exactly that kind of cake. The layers, the care in the assembly, the way it feels like a small occasion just to make it — it reminded me that baking something layered and deliberate is its own way of marking time.
Amaretto Matcha Christmas Cake
Prep Time: 40 min | Cook Time: 30 min | Total Time: 1 hr 10 min | Servings: 12
Ingredients
- 2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
- 2 tablespoons high-quality matcha powder
- 2 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 3/4 cup unsalted butter, softened
- 1 3/4 cups granulated sugar
- 3 large eggs, room temperature
- 2 teaspoons pure vanilla extract
- 3 tablespoons amaretto liqueur
- 1 cup whole milk, room temperature
- For the Amaretto Buttercream:
- 1 cup unsalted butter, softened
- 3 1/2 cups powdered sugar, sifted
- 3 tablespoons amaretto liqueur
- 1 tablespoon heavy cream
- 1 teaspoon matcha powder (for dusting)
- Pinch of salt
Instructions
- Preheat and prepare. Preheat oven to 350°F. Grease and flour three 8-inch round cake pans, then line the bottoms with parchment paper.
- Mix dry ingredients. In a medium bowl, whisk together flour, matcha powder, baking powder, and salt until evenly combined. Set aside.
- Cream butter and sugar. In a large bowl, beat softened butter and granulated sugar with an electric mixer on medium-high speed for 4–5 minutes until very light and fluffy.
- Add eggs and flavorings. Add eggs one at a time, beating well after each addition. Mix in vanilla extract and amaretto liqueur until fully incorporated.
- Combine wet and dry. Reduce mixer speed to low. Add the flour mixture in three additions, alternating with the milk (beginning and ending with flour), mixing just until each addition disappears. Do not overmix.
- Bake the layers. Divide batter evenly among the three prepared pans. Bake for 25–30 minutes, or until a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean and the edges just begin to pull away from the pan.
- Cool completely. Let cakes cool in pans for 10 minutes, then turn out onto wire racks and cool completely before frosting. Do not rush this step.
- Make the buttercream. Beat butter on medium speed until smooth and pale, about 3 minutes. Add sifted powdered sugar one cup at a time, mixing on low. Add amaretto, heavy cream, and salt. Increase speed to medium-high and beat until light and fluffy, 2–3 minutes.
- Assemble the cake. Place the first layer on a cake board or plate. Spread an even layer of buttercream over the top. Repeat with the second layer. Set the third layer on top and apply a thin crumb coat over the entire cake. Chill for 20 minutes.
- Frost and finish. Apply a final smooth layer of buttercream over the chilled cake. Dust the top lightly with matcha powder just before serving.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 520 | Protein: 5g | Fat: 24g | Carbs: 71g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 190mg