Back at LSU and finals are two weeks away. The campus has the energy of a place under siege — everyone studying, everyone stressed, the library full at hours that the library should not be full. I live in the library now. My dorm room is for sleeping. The library is for everything else. Priya and I have claimed a corner table on the third floor that we consider ours by right of occupation, and we defend it with the ferocity of people who know that a good study spot is the difference between a 3.8 and a 3.6.
I am worried about Chemistry. Not failing — I will not fail — but the final is cumulative and there are chapters from September that I understood at the time and have since replaced with October information, which has been replaced by November information, and the brain is a filing cabinet with limited drawers. I am reviewing systematically, making new flashcards, going to office hours. The professor — Dr. Kim — looked at my notes during office hours and said, "These are thorough." I said, "Thank you." He said, "Thorough is what gets you through organic chemistry." Organic chemistry is next semester. I am already afraid of it. But fear and I are old friends. We have been living together since the flood.
I have not cooked in a week. The dorm kitchen is closed for renovation — a pipe broke, because dorm infrastructure was built to the minimum standard and the minimum standard does not account for an eighteen-year-old making roux at 9 p.m. on a Tuesday. I am eating dining hall food and Mama's Tupperware and feeling the absence of cooking in my body the way you feel the absence of exercise: something is off, something is not moving, some part of the daily rhythm has been interrupted and the interruption makes everything else harder.
I called MawMaw Shirley Wednesday night. She asked what I ate for dinner. I said "chicken strips from the dining hall." She paused. It was the pause of a woman summoning the strength not to drive to Baton Rouge. She said, "When the kitchen opens again, you make a roux. A roux fixes everything." She is not wrong. A roux does fix everything. Or at least the stirring does — the thirty-five minutes of attention to one thing, the patience, the slow transformation. I need that right now. Finals would be better with roux.
The minute that dorm kitchen reopens, I’m not making a roux — I’m making something that starts like one. Butter in a pan, slow stirring, patience rewarded with something rich and smooth. MawMaw Shirley said a roux fixes everything, and this Alfredo sauce is close enough — the same standing-at-the-stove meditation, the same careful attention that quiets the part of my brain still cycling through chemistry flashcards. It’s not gumbo, but it’s what I can do with a dorm kitchen and twenty minutes, and right now that’s enough.
Alfredo Sauce
Prep Time: 5 minutes | Cook Time: 15 minutes | Total Time: 20 minutes | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1/2 cup (1 stick) unsalted butter
- 2 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 cups heavy cream
- 1/4 teaspoon salt, plus more to taste
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1/8 teaspoon ground nutmeg
- 1 1/2 cups freshly grated Parmesan cheese
- 2 tablespoons fresh parsley, chopped (optional, for garnish)
- 1 pound fettuccine, cooked according to package directions (for serving)
Instructions
- Melt the butter. In a large saucepan over medium-low heat, melt the butter. Add the minced garlic and cook, stirring frequently, for about 1 minute until fragrant but not browned.
- Add the cream. Pour in the heavy cream and stir to combine with the butter. Bring the mixture to a gentle simmer — do not let it boil. Season with salt, pepper, and nutmeg.
- Simmer and reduce. Let the sauce simmer gently for 8 to 10 minutes, stirring often, until it begins to thicken and coats the back of a spoon.
- Add the Parmesan. Remove the pan from heat. Stir in the grated Parmesan cheese a handful at a time, stirring continuously until each addition is fully melted and the sauce is smooth and creamy.
- Toss and serve. Pour the sauce over hot cooked fettuccine and toss to coat evenly. Garnish with chopped parsley if desired. Serve immediately.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 620 | Protein: 16g | Fat: 54g | Carbs: 18g | Fiber: 1g | Sodium: 580mg