Memorial Day weekend. The pipeline shut down for three days, which felt like a vacation and also like waiting, because when you work with your hands every day, idle hands feel wrong. Hannah says I don't know how to rest. She's right. I don't know how to rest. I know how to cook and build things and those are not the same as resting, no matter how much I pretend they are.
I spent Saturday building a fire pit in the backyard of our rental house. Nothing permanent — just a ring of cinder blocks from the hardware store and some creek rock I'd been collecting — but something to cook over that wasn't the smoker or the stove. There's a difference between cooking over gas and cooking over wood fire, and the difference is about ten thousand years of human history. When you cook over a wood fire, you're doing the oldest thing humans do besides breathing and fighting. I needed that this weekend. I needed to feel connected to something older than pipelines and paychecks.
I grilled burgers for Memorial Day — nothing Cherokee or Mexican about it, just American burgers on American charcoal on American Memorial Day, and I'm not going to apologize for that. I'm a Cherokee man and a Mexican-American man and also just a man who likes burgers, and sometimes the cultures don't need to intersect. Sometimes you just want ground beef and cheese and a cold beer and the Cowboys not being terrible, which is a prayer that never gets answered but I keep praying it.
Dad came over, which was a big deal because Dad doesn't go many places anymore. Mom drove him. He sat in a lawn chair next to the fire pit and watched me grill with that expression he gets — critical, proud, not willing to say which one is winning. His oxygen tank sat beside him like an unwanted guest at a party. He ate half a burger and a few bites of Mom's potato salad and that was all he could manage, but he stayed until the charcoal died, and that meant something.
Lily drove up from Tahlequah with a Cherokee language workbook she'd been developing for the preservation program. She's twenty-six and already running the show down there, saving a language one worksheet at a time. She sat with Kai and tried to teach him the Cherokee word for fire — "ᎠᏥᎳ," atsila. Kai said something that sounded more like "a-silly" and everybody laughed, and Lily said, "Close enough, buddy," and wrote it on his hand so he'd remember. He looked at his hand all evening like it held a secret. Maybe it did.
Luna slept through Memorial Day. She's good at sleeping. She's less good at everything else, but she's two and a half months old and I'm told the rest comes later. I'm in no rush. The fire pit is built. The burgers were good. Dad came over. The word for fire is on my son's hand. That's enough for a holiday.
Once Dad had settled into his lawn chair and the charcoal was glowing good and steady, I didn’t want that fire to go to waste — and burgers alone never feel like enough when you’ve got a crowd and a reason to celebrate. Grilled pizza is what happens when the grill is already hot and you want to give people something that feels a little special without walking away from the fire for more than ten minutes. The smoke gets into the crust the same way it gets into everything else you cook over real coals, and that’s the whole point — that ancient, oldest-thing-humans-do flavor that no oven has ever replicated.
10-Minute Grilled Pepperoni Pizza
Prep Time: 5 min | Cook Time: 10 min | Total Time: 15 min | Servings: 4
Ingredients
- 1 lb store-bought or homemade pizza dough, divided into 2 balls
- 2 tablespoons olive oil, divided
- 1/2 cup pizza sauce
- 1 1/2 cups shredded whole-milk mozzarella cheese
- 3 oz sliced pepperoni (about 40 slices)
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/4 teaspoon crushed red pepper flakes (optional)
- Fresh basil leaves, for serving (optional)
- Cornmeal or flour, for dusting
Instructions
- Prep the grill. Heat a charcoal or gas grill to medium-high heat (around 450—500°F). Clean and oil the grates well so the dough doesn’t stick.
- Shape the dough. On a lightly floured surface, stretch each dough ball into a rough round or oval about 10—12 inches across and 1/4 inch thick. Don’t worry about perfect circles — irregular edges get extra crispy and that’s a good thing.
- Grill the first side. Brush one side of each dough round lightly with olive oil. Lay oiled-side-down directly on the hot grill grates. Close the lid and cook 2—3 minutes, until the bottom is golden and grill marks have formed and the dough has puffed slightly.
- Flip and top. Using tongs, flip each crust grilled-side-up. Working quickly, brush the grilled top with a thin layer of pizza sauce, leaving a 3/4-inch border. Scatter mozzarella evenly, then layer pepperoni over the cheese. Sprinkle with garlic powder and red pepper flakes if using.
- Finish with the lid down. Close the grill lid and cook another 3—5 minutes, until the cheese is fully melted and bubbling and the bottom crust is cooked through and crisp. Check the underside with tongs — it should be deep golden, not burnt.
- Rest and slice. Transfer pizzas to a cutting board and let rest 2 minutes before slicing. Top with fresh basil if you have it, then cut into pieces and serve straight off the board.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 480 | Protein: 20g | Fat: 22g | Carbs: 50g | Fiber: 2g | Sodium: 920mg