Sean had a scan Tuesday. Dr. Mehta called Friday. The scan showed progression — the tumor was growing back along the margins of the resection cavity, which is the specific failure mode of the high-grade glioma when it recurs. The margin growth was small but unmistakable. She said the tumor board had discussed. They were recommending a second-line therapy — a different chemo agent added to the temozolomide, plus a repeat short course of radiation to the new growth area. She said she was sorry. She said we had many options still. I could hear that she was making the voice of a doctor who has run out of the good options and is moving to the next tier.
I did not cry on the phone. I called Sean into the living room. I told him. He sat down. He said "okay, Kate." He said "what is the new chemo." I told him. He said "side effects." I told him. He said "how long." I said "probably four to six weeks of the combined protocol, then we reassess." He said "okay." He said "Kate." I said "I am here." He said "we do it. I am not done fighting." I said "we do it." I held his hand. We sat on the couch for a while. Liam came in. He said "what are you doing." I said "just talking." He said "okay." He went back to his trucks.
I kept my face steady. I have been keeping my face steady for seven months. I am practiced.
I made bone broth Sunday — the deep one, twenty-four hours, with roasted beef bones and a splash of vinegar and the full aromatics — because Sean will need it for the week coming. The next chemo will be harder. I am stocking. I filled six quart containers. Three in the fridge. Three in the freezer. Plus the chicken broth. Plus the soup in portions.
I finished my spring semester this week. My B+ held. I am officially at the midpoint of the NP program. I will continue into summer semester, which is shorter and which I can manage in the current arrangement. I am going to finish this program. Sean made me promise, again, Thursday night. "Kate. Do not stop." I said "I will not stop, Sean." He said "do not stop because of me." I said "I am not stopping." He said "good." He went to sleep.
Linda came Saturday. She brought me a bunch of daffodils. She said "it is spring. Put these in the kitchen." She did not stay long. She did not need to. I put the daffodils in a jar on the sill. Nora saw them and said "yellow." She said "yellow flowers." Clean three-word observation. She is talking more. She is beginning to ask questions. "Where is Daddy?" is her current frequent question. Daddy is upstairs. Daddy is resting. Daddy is in the living room. She checks. She confirms his location. She returns to her game.
The bone broth was already made — six quarts, stacked and waiting — but I needed something solid to go alongside it, something Sean could eat in small portions that would still feel like a real meal. I’ve been reaching for this orange turkey on weeks when I need food that will hold in the fridge, reheat without losing anything, and taste like I put care into it even when my hands were shaking a little while I cooked. It’s bright and savory and forgiving, and right now, forgiving matters.
Orange Turkey
Prep Time: 15 min | Cook Time: 50 min | Total Time: 1 hr 5 min | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 2 1/2 lbs boneless turkey breast, cut into large chunks or left whole
- 1 cup fresh-squeezed orange juice (about 3 medium oranges)
- 1 tablespoon orange zest
- 3 cloves garlic, minced
- 2 tablespoons olive oil
- 1 tablespoon honey
- 1 teaspoon dried thyme
- 1/2 teaspoon dried rosemary
- 1/2 teaspoon salt
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper
- 1 tablespoon cornstarch (optional, to thicken pan sauce)
Instructions
- Preheat and prep. Preheat your oven to 375°F. Lightly grease a 9x13-inch baking dish with olive oil or cooking spray.
- Make the orange marinade. In a medium bowl, whisk together the orange juice, orange zest, minced garlic, olive oil, honey, thyme, rosemary, salt, and pepper until combined.
- Arrange the turkey. Place the turkey pieces in the prepared baking dish in a single layer. Pour the orange marinade evenly over the top, making sure all surfaces are coated. If time allows, let it rest 10 minutes before baking.
- Bake. Cover the dish tightly with foil and bake for 35 minutes. Remove the foil and continue baking for another 12–15 minutes, until the turkey is cooked through and the top is lightly golden. Internal temperature should reach 165°F.
- Rest the turkey. Transfer the turkey to a cutting board and let it rest 5 minutes before slicing. This keeps the meat tender and juicy.
- Finish the pan sauce (optional). Pour the pan drippings into a small saucepan over medium heat. Whisk in 1 tablespoon cornstarch mixed with 2 tablespoons cold water. Stir until the sauce thickens slightly, about 2–3 minutes. Spoon over sliced turkey to serve.
- Serve or store. Serve warm, or cool completely and divide into portions for the refrigerator (up to 4 days) or freezer (up to 3 months).
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 265 | Protein: 39g | Fat: 7g | Carbs: 10g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 290mg