The channel crossed seven hundred fifty thousand subscribers this week and I marked the occasion by posting a video I've been planning for months: a fourteen-year retrospective. Not a highlights reel in the traditional sense — I didn't want to do a "look how far we've come" compilation with music swelling underneath. I wanted something more honest than that. I pulled clips from the very first year, from the middle years, from recent months, and I talked through them without a script. Just me, the camera, and the truth about what this strange, improbable thing has been.
The first clip I showed was from 2018: me in the old kitchen on a Tuesday morning, demonstrating how to make pan sauce from chicken drippings. My hair is different. The kitchen is different. I'm explaining the same thing I'd explain today but there's a tentativeness in my hands that I recognize now as someone who isn't quite sure yet that she belongs behind a camera. That tentativeness is gone now, mostly. It took years. I'm glad it's gone and I'm also, watching the clip, a little tender toward the woman who had it.
Fourteen years. I've posted over eight hundred videos. I've responded to, at best estimate, somewhere north of sixty thousand comments. I've learned about my own cooking by explaining it to strangers, which is perhaps the best culinary education I never expected to get. I've been filmed having good weeks and bad weeks and weeks where I honestly wasn't sure what I was doing in front of a camera when I could have been doing literally anything else.
The response to the retrospective was extraordinary. Three days in and it's the most commented video I've ever posted. People writing about what the channel has meant to them — cooking for the first time after a divorce, learning their grandmother's cuisine from someone who reminded them of her, discovering that they liked being in the kitchen when they'd assumed they never would. I read every comment. I always read every comment. These are not metrics. These are people.
Seven hundred fifty thousand people subscribed. But the ones who stay, who write in, who make the recipes — there are maybe a few thousand of those, the real community, and they are the ones I cook for. I told them that in the video. I meant it.
When I watched that 2018 clip of myself explaining pan sauce from chicken drippings, I didn’t feel embarrassed — I felt proud of her for knowing, even then, that the fundamentals matter most. Sauce-making is still the technique I come back to again and again, and this miso gravy is one I’ve made on camera at least three times because viewers keep asking for it. It’s simple enough to teach, complex enough to love, and exactly the kind of recipe I’d want someone to find on a Tuesday morning when they’re just beginning to believe they belong in the kitchen.
Miso Gravy
Prep Time: 5 minutes | Cook Time: 15 minutes | Total Time: 20 minutes | Servings: 6
Ingredients
- 3 tablespoons unsalted butter
- 3 tablespoons all-purpose flour
- 2 cups low-sodium chicken or vegetable broth
- 2 tablespoons white (shiro) miso paste
- 1 teaspoon soy sauce
- 1/2 teaspoon garlic powder
- 1/4 teaspoon black pepper, freshly ground
- Salt to taste
- 1 teaspoon fresh thyme leaves (optional)
Instructions
- Build the roux. In a medium saucepan over medium heat, melt the butter until foamy. Add the flour and whisk constantly for 1 to 2 minutes until the mixture turns a pale golden color and smells slightly nutty. Do not let it brown.
- Add the broth. Slowly pour in the broth in a steady stream, whisking vigorously the entire time to prevent lumps. Continue whisking until the mixture is completely smooth.
- Simmer and thicken. Bring the gravy to a gentle simmer over medium heat, stirring frequently. Cook for 5 to 7 minutes until the gravy has thickened enough to coat the back of a spoon.
- Incorporate the miso. Reduce the heat to low. Place the miso paste in a small bowl and ladle in a few tablespoons of the hot gravy. Stir until the miso is fully dissolved, then pour the mixture back into the saucepan. This prevents the miso from clumping and preserves its delicate flavor.
- Season and finish. Stir in the soy sauce, garlic powder, and black pepper. Add fresh thyme if using. Taste and adjust salt carefully — the miso and soy sauce both carry saltiness, so add sparingly.
- Serve immediately. Pour over mashed potatoes, roasted chicken, pork, rice, or biscuits. If the gravy thickens too much as it sits, whisk in a splash of warm broth to loosen it.
Nutrition (per serving)
Calories: 85 | Protein: 2g | Fat: 6g | Carbs: 6g | Fiber: 0g | Sodium: 320mg